I am writing this in advance, and scheduling it to post Saturday morning.
Today is the big day. My first time on stage in over a year. My first REAL bikini debut (I did a bikini comp a couple of years ago... 11 days out was when I decided to do it.. for fun. yes I am loony) that one doesn't count. This is a picture from that day. I was no where near lean enough, compared to the other girls in the line up I looked twice their size but it was a fun experience and I did it with one of my best friends!
I am sure at this point in time I have already checked in to the venue. My hair and makeup and tan are applied. I am probably exhausted because I bet I didn't sleep last night, but the day has arrived. Its hard to believe that I walked into Sandy's office 4 weeks ago, begging for some help. Some guidance. I wanted to compete but I felt SO FAR off of it. I honestly just wanted to cry when I was telling her how hard I have been trying to lose the weight I gained from Figure. I miss my old body. My younger body. My 110 pound body. I never in a million years thought that I would be ready to be on stage in four short weeks. But.. here I am. Ready or not. I get teary eyed just thinking about how hard I have worked. The sweat, the blood (okay not really) and the tears. I have spent countless hours at the gym, I have never done so much cardio in my life. My diet hasn't even been that hard. Much easier than my Figure diet that is for sure, which is why I think my mental state has been better. I don't feel like I have been THAT deprived for that long.
Tomorrow will be an update on the show, how it went, how I did, how I felt but today I just want to focus on HOW I GOT HERE. So thankful for my husband, my family and my friends. They support me 100%. I know not everyone understands why I love this sport, and what it does for me to compete but the fact that they support me means the world to me. This sport isn't for everyone and to be honest every time I compete I wonder how I got through it because I am so shy, I have the worst stage fright of anyone I know. Pushing through that fear, getting on stage, accomplishing a goal... man that feeling is INDESCRIBABLE. Thank you all for reading my blog and supporting me in my Fitness Journey!